you know what, I love everybody. I'm so lucky to have the friends I do, and the family that I do, and the opportunities that I have. becoming a doctor is really the coolest thing one can be without trying to be a superfamous somebody else. and money is not that big a deal, either.

i still need to explore and think and dream for the future. because as I realized today, dreams really do come true. it's just nice to have them figured sooner as opposed to later.

there are blessings in this world that one must hold on to in order to become a better person - for me, the blessings come in the form of people who are able to inspire me with their passion. it's just hard that life arranges for those people to come in long after you needed them, and just in time to keep things from really going shitty.

life in and out of Medicine. 

it's such a balancing act. At least Medicine is rich in and of itself, and while I'm in it, I may as well appreciate it.

I saw a dying man the yesterday night. Apparently, Death is characterized by shallow, labored breathing and falling blood pressure. As far as pallor, it is difficult to tell the difference between a very sick man's cold clammy skin and a dying man's cold clammy skin. At least for me, now. I wonder how often I will encounter Death from now on.

such morbid thoughts. I need warm mint tea. I need to write all that I know so that I don't forget it. I need so much and am so hard to please.

I have decided to become a yogi. at least to some extent.. because things are so crazy & complicated right now, and I really just want to maintain simplicity in some part of my life. So no boys for a while, and maybe I'll become vegetarian again.